It took me a good pep talk but I was finally able to watch Glee’s tribute to Finn/Cory Monteith. I was pretty much dreading it because I knew how sad it would be and how tragic his death is. Whenever a bright young star passes away, it feels so pointless and like such a waste of talent, particularly if it’s a drug related death. I am a proud fan of Glee (I don’t use the term “Gleek” but I have seen every episode ever) and I felt the way about Finn Hudson that everyone else did : sweet, kind, thoughtful, insightful, romantic.

I finally psyched myself up for the tribute episode Friday night and sat down to watch it, tissues ready. The show opens with what is one of the most bittersweet musical moments/songs in history and could not have been more perfect for the occasion: “Seasons of Love” from Rent. The cast stands on a dark stage (just like in Rent), with newer Glee cast members starting, Finn’s graduating class friends featured next and then the entire cast singing together. Mercedes (Amber Riley), no surprise, took on the wonderful solo vocalist part and as she told us to “measure your life in love” for the last time, an enormous screen with a photo of Finn/Cory dressed in his football t-shirt and holding his helmet appears behind. “Brace yourself, this episode is going to be rough” I remind myself.


The next scene shows Kurt (Chris Colfer) packing in his NYC bedroom apartment, explaining how Finn died a few weeks ago and how he is going back to Lima (Ohio) for a tribute week, planned by Mr. Shue. Kurt looks like he’s been crying nonstop for weeks and I quickly realize how these actors aren’t going to be acting, or at least not the way one normally would when playing a grieving character. These are people who in actuality lost a dear friend and co-worker they’ve known, worked alongside of, and loved for years. They cried real tears over this. This tribute episode is so, so sad because its actually real. Cory really is gone.

In this opening scene, Kurt tells us that it doesn’t matter how Finn died, that he wants to remember Finn’s whole life, not just a moment of it. And we never find out, throughout the entire episode, how in fact Finn died. One can assume a car crash, as it is a common way to die suddenly and in an instant. We may find out in upcoming weeks but I really doubt it. If Ryan Murphy and the other writers didn’t tell us in this episode, they’re not going to tell us. I think this was a very interesting choice and I support it.


The show developers wanted the episode’s focus to be more about how Finn’s friends and loved ones cope and grieve. Different characters are focused on in this episode, particularly Santana, Puck, and of course Kurt, his dad, and his step mother, who is Finn’s mom. But all the characters are portrayed experiencing their grief in their own unique ways, which could not have been more fascinating or touching.

The scene that had me breaking down only 15 minutes in was the one portraying Kurt in Finn’s room, with their parents, talking about Finn. Mr. Hummel discusses through tears how he wishes he hugged Finn more instead of pats on the backs and high fives. “The kid didn’t have a prejudice bone in his body,” Mr. Hummel reflects. So true of the character. Kurt goes next, taking out Finn’s football varsity jacket and putting it on. “Seeing him come down the hallway wearing this, it was like Superman had arrived,” reflecting on how Finn stood by Kurt during Kurt’s bullying period. Finally, Finn’s mother talks. “I always thought, parents go on when they lose a child. But I would think, how do they wake up everyday? How do they breathe? Then when you do wake up, for just a second, you forget. And then, oh, then you remember. And it’s like getting that call again, and again, every time. You don’t get to stop waking up. You have to keep on being a parent even though you don’t get to have a child anymore.” Insert breakdown here on the show and also on my couch. It was such a brutally honest and well-acted scene that the tears were really streaming. It also features the most touching group hug. Overall, this was the most heartbreaking scene I’ve seen in anything in a long time.

kurt in jacket

Back in the choir room, Mr. Shue tells the group to pick a Finn-related song, whether it be one that reminds the person of Finn, of losing someone in general, or be it a song that Finn once performed. Also, throughout the show, Finn’s varsity jacket gets passed around, comforting the grieving person enveloped in it at the time.

Let’s take a look at the show’s songs:

Santana’s (Naya Rivera) rendition of “If I Die Young” by The Band Perry. Santana is a really tough cookie. Here she breaks down, leading her to leave short, running out of the room at the end. Leading up to her performance, Santana is her usual caustic, mean self, which she later feels badly about, because she actually wanted to share nice memories of Finn. One of the episode’s best plot points was Santana directing her anger over Finn’s senseless death at Sue (Jane Lynch). Santana finds out that Sue took down the school’s Finn memorial. Santana really rips into Sue: “You wanted that memorial gone because you’re such a cold-hearted bitch. A miserable, self-centered bitch who has spent every waking minute of the last three years trying to make our lives miserable.” Santana later apologizes, leading to one of those great and rare times when Sue lets down her front and shows her kind and compassionate side. I love when Sue does that. “He was such a good guy. Now I’ll never get to tell him. There’s no lesson here, there’s no happy ending. There’s just nothing. He’s just gone. He would have made an excellent teacher. I thought I’d spend the next 30 years teaching along side of him…It’s just so pointless. All that potential.”

The aforementioned “Seasons of Love.” I dare you not to get goosebumps watching this.

With just a few minutes left to the episode, we get our first glimpse of Rachel, played by Cory’s real-life love Lea Michele. She sings the gorgeous Garth Brooks tune “To Make You Feel My Love.” Rachel states that this is the first song she ever sang in the car with Finn. She is a mess, and I couldn’t help thinking that there is no way she could sing and cry like that at the same time. But we’ll put the fantastical element aside and say a prayer for Ms. Michele during this time of grieving and appreciate her incredible talent and beautifully sorrowful rendition of this song.

A Bruce fan, I loved Puck’s (Mark Salling’s) bare bones, meloncholic rendition of Mr. Springsteen’s “No Surrender.”

Amber Riley is an outrageous performer. She can’t do anything less than outstanding. This is Mercedes’s gorgeous rendition of The Pretender’s “I’ll Stand By You.”

Sweet and simple rendition of “Fire and Rain” by James Taylor, sung by Artie and Sam, played by cuties Kevin McHale and Chord Overstreet.

I’m sure many Glee fans agree with me that this episode was extremely well done and all around a beautiful tribute to Cory and his beloved Glee character, but I’m very glad that it has come and gone. It was not easy viewing but was a total must-watch . It will be very interesting to see if and how the rest of the season incorporates Finn’s death.